How Can Life Change So Much In A Few Months?

Since the new year rolled in, I’ve been struggling a bit to balance art-making and my day job.

Not because I’m necessarily overloaded with work or extremely stressed; it’s more that I can’t seem to get in the ‘zone’ of painting when all I have to work with is a few hours a week. I can’t decide if it’s lack of motivation, frustration or a bit of laziness (probably all three), but it’s awful to feel like I’m in a stagnant stage of my practice.

My day job is not art-related in any way shape or form, and whilst I do like this separation from time to time, most of the time I feel as though I’m drifting away from my identity as an artist the more I get into the 9-5 routine.

La Wayaka Current Tropic 08°N Expedition, Guna Yala, Panama // October 2018

As I sat at my desk earlier today I found myself thinking of how crazy it is that just three months ago I was living in the Darien jungle with a group of amazing artists who taught me so much. And how, about ten days after I arrived back home, I got a full-time corporate job.

It’s crazy how fast life situations change.. but also hugely exciting.

I’m genuinely really grateful to my current day job for giving me the chance to build up financial independence, meet great people and release some of the pressure that comes from creating art and new ideas day in day out.

Balance. Will let you know when I find it.